As someone who lives with Depression and an Eating Disorder, I would like to recognize World Mental Health Day and help end stigma by writing an open and honest letter to my younger self. I would like others to know they are not alone and, though the fight is difficult, it is worth it.
Dear Younger Me,
I know that some people have made you feel small or unworthy with their hurtful comments, but don’t let them win. Don’t let their close-minded, narrow definitions of gender and beauty make you believe you are “less than” in some way. You are no less Girl than your peers with longer hair and more curvy bodies. Your short hair and athletic build do not define you any more than your name defines you. Your kindness, compassion, intelligence, and sense of humor are what make your friends and family love you. You are not for everyone and that is okay. Also, stop obsessing over your body and how it looks. Your body is amazing and strong and will carry you through many miles and help bring LIFE into this world. You will have two beautiful, healthy children. That’s right, YOU! The girl who feels like she will never have a boyfriend or find love.
Those boys who tease you or ignore you don’t matter because when you get older, you will meet a man who loves you for YOU. You will come to understand that a man with integrity will value you for your heart, your mind, and your soul. Remember, though, that the love of a man or attention from others do not make you worthy. The very fact that you’re here and you’re alive makes you worthy. Your fears about not belonging or not being enough might feel like they will consume you at times, but remember that the pain is temporary. It is okay to ask for help to learn how to cope with the pain. Don’t wait! I promise you won’t regret it. You will be showing your children (and others) that strength is not hiding from your problems, but facing them head on, with courage and hope. You’ve got this. Now go and spread love and light out there!
Always,
Shelley
Redefined Runner 