If you grew up going to Sunday school and church like I did, you may recall a children's song that is sung like this, "Deep and wide, deep and wide, there's a fountain flowing deep and wide." The song was written in the late 1800s by Sidney Cox, a major in the Salvation Army. It… Continue reading Deep and Wide
Category: eating disorders
The Weight is Never-ending
We have come to the final month of what has been a very trying year, to say the least. Not only are we in the midst of a global pandemic, there have been multiple natural disasters, an important election, rife with tension and vitriol, and a great deal of violence and unrest due to continued… Continue reading The Weight is Never-ending
The Real Deal
Did anyone else grow up with a Mother who seemed to know a laundry list of idioms or phrases to apply to just about any life situation? There were times I would roll my eyes when she did this because I was a sassy teenager, but I am pretty sure I have turned into that… Continue reading The Real Deal
A Note to my Younger Self
As someone who lives with Depression and an Eating Disorder, I would like to recognize World Mental Health Day and help end stigma by writing an open and honest letter to my younger self. I would like others to know they are not alone and, though the fight is difficult, it is worth it. Dear Younger… Continue reading A Note to my Younger Self
Empty Pavement
I am an athlete. While I may no longer be on a team and I may no longer be able to catch or throw a ball to save my life (thanks to years of mostly just running), I am an athlete. I train hard and I push myself to the limit (less as I get… Continue reading Empty Pavement
Taming the Beast
For anyone who uses social media, you know what a blessing and a curse it can be. It allows us to keep in touch with friends and family near and far and to network with people we may not otherwise meet in person. At the same time, it is very easy to play the comparison… Continue reading Taming the Beast
Untethered
When I was in the throes of my eating disorder, it felt as though I was a prisoner in my own mind and body, chained to my goals and expectations. Nearly every choice I made related to food and exercise felt like a choice I had to make in order to gain approval or feel… Continue reading Untethered
Step Into the Light
For the past few years, I have been on a journey of self-discovery by facing my shame and owning and accepting my vulnerability. It began when I started to accept my eating disorder and seek recovery. Given my career choice (school counselor), it feels strange to admit that prior to my eating disorder, I usually… Continue reading Step Into the Light
My Wish for My Daughter
Throughout my eating disorder recovery, I have had to remind myself that it is okay to feel lost and broken. At the same time, it is important to recognize that I am not my thoughts or my feelings. I have depth that reaches to my soul, where my love and passion can outshine my ED. My… Continue reading My Wish for My Daughter
The Curse of the Itty Bitty Running Shorts
I have struggled with body image for so long that I have to be very intentional about speaking kindly to myself when it comes to my body. I have always been athletic, yet I didn't always appreciate what a gift I had been given in this regard. I loved sports and I usually fared pretty… Continue reading The Curse of the Itty Bitty Running Shorts
Redefined Runner 